Radical Expectance?

Over the last few months I have been diving into a lot of issues with my therapist. One of which is my problem with excepting change as it comes planned or unplanned as it may be.

She has been posing challenges and giving me “homework” in hopes to help me find my way to expectance. One of which is for me to practice Radical Expectance for one week. Which is a way to say what happens happens, I am to try and not control every moment of my every day. I have to allow for failure and the unexpected to happen. And remember that it is as it should be if things don’t go according to plan.

This is going to be hard for me, mostly because I have cultivated a persona that keeps me “safe” from the unexpected and I live in my “safe/controlled” world because of the feels of not having these things when I was with my ex 9 years ago.

Have you ever felt like your world was spinning out of control and you needed a safe place even if it were just an illusion to run to?


After practicing Radical Expectance for a week I found I am NOT one to just let thing happen around me any longer. But it has allowed me to recall a time in my life when I was more go with the flow. These days are not gone for good they are fighting the control freak to come to the surface a little each week. Now I do not think my need to control will ever be gone nor do I want it to disappear but I honestly do miss my laid back self.

I hope each and everyone of you have a little bit of both worlds inside of you. And you let them shine.